Finally, I have Vanessa back. Things were fine. It was the belt tensioner. I should have seen this coming. I heard light squeaking in the belt the last month or two.
Anyway. I got in and drove off. I parked, opened the door. But Vanessa kept beeping at me like …
On my way home, I felt it. The heat stopped coming out. The cold creeped in quickly. I noticed the battery light on the dash. The steering felt stiff, barely noticable at highway speeds but unmistakable. And finally, the temp gauge began to rise fast.
I had thrown my drive …
For a few years I was a pseudo leader at a support group in my area for transgender people. I was the legally responsible emissary for a couple of years. I have since left and failed to hand over responsibilities.
I went to a recent meeting and spoke with someone …
No vomiting this time thankfully. However right before I set out to a friend's place I felt so dizzy and nauseous I had to lie down. I did the off and on sleeping thing for about four hours. And after some food and gobs of water I began to feel …
Today I burnt thousands of pages. A lot with sensitive medical data I would not like floating around. Others simply records of experiences I've lived in the past.
This being the second time burning like this, I felt more prepared for the shift in perspective afterwards. Symbolically I destroy ties …
I don't know what I will write during the rest of the month, but I figured I'd at least outline what the plan is.
I am stuck in MA for a while. Since my parents are planning to sell the house this summer, I am spending a large chunk of …
Seriously. Life itself is not hard. Every living creature figures out how to do it. Our body and minds are designed to keep living as long as we can. Some species have apparently survived for tens of thousands of years, and some over a million right? Life, living, not dying …
This was written in the midst of a partial hospitalization after a serious bout with suicidality. Never stop asking yourself questions. These questions helped bring me to life.
A remarkable thing happened. I woke up at my mother's house the first day and felt nauseous. I threw up a couple times and spent all day in bed. Yuck.
But why? If this type of sick occurred in Vanessa it would have been horrifying. I am not prepared for …
In the last 38 days, I was social 29 of them. This is a lot for me. I have never spent so much time and energy meeting new people in my life. Van life gave me this month. Van life gave me all the growth I experienced the month of …
Super excited. I recently created an account at Cloudinary.com for their free account.
I really want to switch over to a CDN for image hosting because my git project should not host all those images.
Here's what I accomplished:
This new years eve was better than any other year of my life! What I love the most is how today is today, and while I am recalling yesterday for the sake of history, I am here today and that's it.
Yesterday I played my violin and made $50. The …
I have been up to so much in the last two weeks. I have hardly had time to write about it all. I will recap in this post, but I am thankful I still managed to write more than what you'll see here in a different place.
One of the …
