A very social month. Today I part north.

In the last 38 days, I was social 29 of them. This is a lot for me. I have never spent so much time and energy meeting new people in my life. Van life gave me this month. Van life gave me all the growth I experienced the month of December. Oh and all the cool people I met too.

Highlights because of my openness to meeting new people:

• I performed in a concert!
• I went busking for the first time
• I found a boy I was attracted to
• I found that sexuality doesn't have to hurt as bad as it used to
• I realized more confidence than I've ever had before
• I can now meet new people without anxiety (except cis girls, you scary yo ;)

I feel so different about what I am now. What I offer to the world. Who I am willing to be. Who I can be. So shit. Thanks Jacksonville, St Augustine, and Orlando Florida.

I never would have changed like this without Vanessa. In the face of so much change, without proximity of friends, I had to push to learn to make new ones.

I <3 Vanessa

Alongside my growth, I saw every single person I met grow too. New confidences found in every one of them. This makes me feel very good. Especially when I can have an impact on my trans sisters. Nothing makes me happier than seeing them grow, and find inner strength and happiness. I love it.

I know what I am now, thanks girl. I am so fucking grateful for you.

The cold of the North

I am beginning my ascent today. In six days time I shall be back in Mass enduring the insufferable hell of winter. Each day I will get colder and colder. And hopefully not depressed along the way.

Watch out for some more posts. I'll have a lot of time to write this week.