This trip has taught me a lot about who I am attracted to. What I am willing to do, and how I feel about myself. I am amazed at what I've discovered.
I truly am a pansexual kind of human. Someone where gender does not play a significant role in …
I fucking hate this life. I suck at being a friend to the healthy and happy. Because I have nothing to offer to others. All of my existence is focused on my recovery and staying away from the darkness. So all I have to give is hope and bullshit support …
I don't know why this is a shadow. But it is. I am empty feeling. In the sense that I see just how much of my time is spent following hollow habits. Empty nothings that waste my time.
I am fighting the urge to browse the internet, watch videos, and …
The universe is free to experience any kind of all kinds that it can. This means that all forms of death will and can occur. All forms of stories will find a way at one time or another. Some people die from old age, some of cancer, accidents, heart failure …
I am not shy about admitting how much envy I hold in my heart. Envy has been a best friend for my whole life. Maybe if I could let go of it, I could look forward without a mouthful of sawdust.
As I tried to uncover what I was hiding …
Something, so starkly different lines the void in my heart right now. A bleak lens focused on pitiful pats and fleeting lights. Without the false hope of rekindled flames I am now forced to face my prospects.
What I may write here is steeped in bias, stereotypes, and anecdotes, but …
I shouldn't be writing about this here. But I am. Grieving is tough. Grief can be so consuming you forget there was life outside it. And in some ways it really is easier to stay inside grief. Never Let Go.
What's fascinating me in this moment, is how differently I …
In my last shadow post I wrote about doing a big thing. I did it.
I am still unsure how I feel about writing this personal when it involves someone else but this isn't something I can avoid writing about.
I reconnected with an old flame from high school about …
Tomorrow I am doing something that feels really big. Every reason why it is big is unique to my own story. For others, it may not be as big. Such is the nature of individual experience.
Tonight I am signifying my triumph over my favorite meal. Drunken Noodles at this …
I know, that I have a strong need to explore submissive tones of sexuality. And I'm thankful for the times that I get that opportunity. But I'm struggling against those questions. Where do I truly lie? What do I truly want? What can I live with?
I know that I …
I have been with enough people to see the difference between those who truly captivate me, and those who I am happy with for now. I think we all need both in our lives, and that's okay. But something that's frustrating me is how all the truly captivating ones slip …
I am no longer plagued by a nagging gremlin of suicide. My efforts on shame, vulnerability, and transition have cured me of that. Now I am learning to live with the where my path has taken me thus far.
The blend of my two lives has left me still hoping …
Lol. I can see in this moment how others see I'm hidden and know what's inside is captivation. What I let out already is. And how lucky they feel when I open up, or if I happen to feel something strong for you. I can see some of the ways …
