Actively watching plot points of your life.

Tomorrow I am doing something that feels really big. Every reason why it is big is unique to my own story. For others, it may not be as big. Such is the nature of individual experience.

Tonight I am signifying my triumph over my favorite meal. Drunken Noodles at this on place that does it really well. While there I will spin over all I have done to get here. What I truly hope to get out of this experience. All I hope to do after.

Watching your life happen as you make it so.

I wonder how others experience these events? You've decided to do something big? What feelings do you have as you get right up against it? What do you think of? Do you imagine how this event may change the course of your entire life? Maybe that's why so many people call me a romantic. Because I often think of universal time. That and I am intensely symbolic and sentimental. Duh.

I enjoy these moments. For when I get to them I am often finally calm and collected. I shed my cloak of fears and step forward into something very uncomfortable. It is such a remarkable experience despite its possible negative outcome.

I see myself in this moment. I see what I am. I am reminded of why I hate my life: I hate my power. I don't want responsibility unless someone gives it to me.

What a post eh?