Recovery Posts

A great deal of my life is trapped in orbit around the idea of recovery and healing from trauma, life. I hope you find inspiring words here.

What can I focus on to keep recovering?

I know I address this in different ways periodcially, but here's another list which might inspire you to keep working your way towards recovery:

  • Get a quality therapist who's aim is to reduce suffering
  • Research the topic of anxiety & recovery
  • Create and maintain a list of Life goals to direct …

Coping with negative emotions

Quick tip here. We all experience thoughts about negative things. This can range from guilt to shame, to suicidality. Yikes. For someone like me, where I spent years allowing suicidal thoughts exist in my mind, it can be tough to not let them win. Here's my way of releasing those …

Where do I start?

You're trapped. You feel you cannot get out of this hole you are so deep in. When you're down here, at the bottom, what does it take to get up? How do you begin?

I need to get away from the internet, what can I do?

Hate how you spend all your time in front of computer screens or on the internet wasting time? Here is a list of ideas you can peruse for inspiration. Some of these are quite unconventional. Read carefully.

  • pluck all your body hair with tweezers
  • practice moving one eye but not …

Are you a failure?

Or do you simply believe the thought that you are a failure? If you HAVE failed in the past, can you not find ways to get better so you don't fail the same way again in the future? Failure is common but failure only comes knowing you didn't try your …

Life is not hard, dealing with your self is

Seriously. Life itself is not hard. Every living creature figures out how to do it. Our body and minds are designed to keep living as long as we can. Some species have apparently survived for tens of thousands of years, and some over a million right? Life, living, not dying …

Questions from after a suicide attempt

This was written in the midst of a partial hospitalization after a serious bout with suicidality. Never stop asking yourself questions. These questions helped bring me to life.

Days of saving are over

I like this, but I also want to pick it apart.

If I am bedding with someone who inspires growth in me, how will I determine if this person is trying to save me? IS it okay to bed with someone who IS trying to save me?

The implication I …

I am 6 months real now

Fuck I hate being real.

Six months now I have pushed, shoved, cried, tried, fallen, and gotten back up. I have changed a lot, discovering more of who I can be and stepping outside my boundaries. Let me tell you. I hate it. I would much rather be pain free …

Reading "The Fault in our Stars"

The fault is not in our stars, but in ourselves.

So much of what I'm learning is that it's okay for me to love, to be loved, and to feel worthy of it all.

I once believed so strongly I did not deserve to be me. Because I have always …

The definition of hope

Today was not great, but tomorrow might be!

I wish I could remember who suggested this be the definition of hope. Likely Brene Brown. However this image has been adorable and helpful for me.

How you get to that point of believing tomorrow might be better, will probably take a …

I have come farther than I give myself credit

Amidst writing a post on reddit seeking help for reducing shame, I realized I would not get anything new from it. I have everything I need to keep revealing myself. I need to push myself and act.

As I learned deeply from my strict violin teacher growing up, you will …

You own your knowledge

If you are struggling and feel stuck, google "how to get unstuck". If you feel like you cannot change but wish to, google "how to change". If you need something in your life, simply learning ANYTHING about that subject is going to make a large difference.

Within our perfectionism and …