Harper's Ferry with a friend
I spent two days with a friend camping at a place called Harper's Ferry riht on the border of Maryland, Virginia, and West Virginia. It was too cold, and too much, but it was worth it. Just look at the sweet photos!
Chronograph Posts
I write about everyday things here. Mostly to keep track of what happens in my life so I can look back at this all and cringe. I mean, so I can reminisce with nostalgia, and my egg sandwich.
pain is not pleasure
I hate this title. As much as I want to rage about how I would never want to experience pain during sexy times, I'll bet I don't fully understand what it really means to give in to those acts.
Nonetheless, FUCK PAIN. I spent my entire life in shame, humiliation …
York PA
Today was wild. I couldn't sleep and woke up so early. So I tried to go watch the sunrise at this nearby hilltop park thing. No sunrise, but I found a strange little park in northern York.
It was hunting season in this park, but as I learned from a …
Reading, PA
I woke slow today. Way too much yesterday. I wasn't moving until noon. Ugh. But I found a road called skyline drive with public land. So I went.
Atop the ridge was a fire tower. There I spoke with Mike for a while, a retired navy vet with a hobby …
Surprise! Spent the day in Delaware Water Gap
Today I kinda pushed myself too much. But I guess I was determined to make something of this trip. Anyway, a friend suggested I see the Delaware Water Gap, confusingly, in Pennsylvania/New Jersey.
I stopped at the Pennsylvania welcome center for info and I just went on. I saw …
First day, first encounter, feeling good
Quick story about the universe.
I stopped at a rest stop for a break. After being there for almost an hour, after a rest and phone call, a jeep pulled up next to me. The occupants got out trying to fix their head light. IT was pretty busted. The whole …
Filling in the void a little bit more
Last night, my very good friend and I talked about my anger towards my life. How I feel trapped by my pain, and prevented from a real life because I missed out on the first 25 years.
After going over a lot it dawned on me how much this negative …
Another hollow Halloween, another sad fucking Halloween.
I remember so many years watching Halloween come and pass. Envy filled my every bone as I detested my fear of expression. I stopped dressing up for Halloween as soon as I could. Likely around puberty or seventh grade. I have not participated now in over fifteen years. And oh …
Been letting myself feel too depressed lately.
For the better part of a month now I have been rather depressed. Rightly so. I did a big thing and put myself in a band new frame of mind. It's scary. But I have been feeding some of the negative thoughts too much for too long. It is so …
It's getting cold
I'm in Vanessa for a number of nights this week. As I am trying to get ready to leave, I am crippled by the cold and its effects on my joints.
I have had so many doctor appointments. I am out of money. And driving way too much. I try …
On burning memorabilia
As part of van life, I had to purge most of my stuff. I never had a overload of stuff but I still had plenty to get rid of. Of course, the hardest things to get rid of were my old memorabilia. But that is going to change on Sunday.
I'm leaving Reddit
I don't know why I'm writing about this here. I'm mostly whining right now. But I am unplugging from reddit. Why do I need it? Yes sometimes I get internet strangers responding to my vents/rants, but so what...
I am avoiding my life right now. I am avoiding my …
Am I right to keep those I love at a distance?
Last night I was lying in bed, mulling over my social life. How limited it is. How limited I keep it. And how I plan to manage the relationships in my life already. Why do I do this to myself?