I am on the phone with my friend, topless, not wearing a seatbelt.
I take the exit off the highway to the small town area where I will be staying. A police cruiser sits off the side of the road, plainly visible. Feeling brash, I make no effort to hide the fact that I'm on the phone.
Yes, he follows me and pulls me over xD
I accidentally fell asleep in a McDonald's parking lot. Doh! I was woken by the police at 3:30... sigh, might as well drive all the way to the ocean for the sunrise!
Today I returned home. I had planned to go right through but I was feeling so good I figured I would stop and do the family thing. Just not spend the night there. So off I am to get into it.
I was super happy this morning. I got a …
Today I crossed the line into MA. Following the same route I took home when I first bought Vanessa over a year ago.
The drive through the mountains to get to MA produced very little emotional response in me. I was kinda excited by this. I am so present that …
Killer. I felt like seeing more mountains since my Virginia visit. So I planned this stop at the Katskills. I was even willing to PAY for a campground night! Woah. First time I paid for a place to sleep this whole trip.
Every step, things fall into place faster. Like approaching the end of a puzzle. The fewer pieces left, the quicker they go in. I can't wait to see what happens when I get home.
If ever I thought I could be here, I trusted the fact that it would only happen should I allow myself to. Letting go. Imagining a possible future and the steps to reach it.
I ask myself this a lot:
If someone like me -- in all my traumas, fucked-up-ness, hurdles, intelligences, talents, gifts -- were to recover, to find their whole self, what would it look like?
This question has led me for years now. I trust it. Maybe you will too.
I'm cramming two days into one here. What a wild rollercoaster ride. On my way north through Pennsylvania, with no real plan, I was hungry. I saw a sign for a diner on the highway. I got off and followed said signs. It got weird and awesome after that.
I, wanted to implement some more features on this site, and amidst my social time here, I failed to complete them, or even get close. So I reverted.
I am leaving tomorrow. So expect a recap post of my time here in Maryland in a day or so.
So I guess I'm beginning to share where I am now. Getting tiresome to try to hide it. And you may also notice that I backdate posts to the day things happen, rather than the day I write. Regardless.
Holy heck was my time in Maryland awesome, affecting, powerful.
I have been on the road for 90 days in Vanessa! I wanted to try to write some words about the experience from this context.
I have been staying with a friend of mine in MD, whom I met at a courthouse in MA, who lived in NH, from two years ago. This afternoon I got a text from a new friend I met earlier this week saying she was in town.
Every day is a thing now huh. Every day is, exciting. Every day I feel better and better. I spent two days in Baltimore MD with a new friend. Someone I met on a social media site purely for the sake of hanging out with another trans person. I am so happy this worked out.
Yesterday, we got sushi, and I made a gaff for them. Tonight we went for a boat ride in the bay, walked up a hill as the sun's light faded, then walked all the way back to their place, stopping for a beer.
