My time in Elkton MD

So I guess I'm beginning to share where I am now. Getting tiresome to try to hide it. And you may also notice that I backdate posts to the day things happen, rather than the day I write. Regardless.

Holy heck was my time in Maryland awesome, affecting, powerful.

I spent a total of ten days. At first, I regressed. I first met my friend two years ago. I felt myself slipping into disengagement and fear. Thankfully I snapped out of it by playing my violin.

We went to a friend's house, me, my friend, and her girlfriend, and hung out with a couple. There was a fire, drinking, and some awkward interactions. But I hadn't been in a setting with alcohol like that in a long time. That was a good experience for me.

Another day we went out and watched the sun go down on a tower. Another day we played frisbee golf for seven holes. Yes it was me who stopped the game early :|

My friend and her girlfriend are very comfortable with their bodies and being around people like that for this long really gave me a lot of confidence too. I think most of my experiences with other transgender people have been in a context of support, and those who are early on. Both these girls have been at this a while and are quite comfortable in their own skin. Maybe the most powerful lesson I learned during my time there.

I stuck around so long because I think I am afraid to go back home. Worried I'll regress deeply and not come out of it. I spent all but two years in MA. So many associations, memories.