Trip 4: The Fall

Today I finally departed for my next trip in Vanessa! Took way too long, but after support from my kith and kin I am off.

This trip I should still make it down to Florida again, but I must return in January. That's the sad part. So this is really, half the fall trip. But that's okay.

What I accomplished this summer

• installed new bright LED light
• redid wiring for existing lights
• fix my shoe-rack style organization
• replaced the blower motor
• re-adhered my ceiling insulation
• got brand new brake lines

I'm rather proud of my ceiling insulation trick. I found some rather large hex bolts and drove them through the insulation so the head of the bolt faced the floor. Then, I used a magnet on the end of the bold to hold the insulation to the metal ceiling. This creates an air gap about 1/4 - 1/2 inch. So I glued some mylar sheeting onto the insulation I had hoping it might have some effect. Thanks for the idea Brittany!

Other Summer Learnings

I thankfully had many experiences this summer, and it's so cool to look back at how much I changed through it. I went on dates! Can you believe that? Me, on a real date. Damn. I worked a lot of my sewing project. And I cannot wait for the spring so I can show it to people.

I found a lot more grounding in myself. I think being physical with a few people really helped me with that. I learned just how much physical touch can alleviate my pain. And if I'm not careful I might addicted to it. It is a remarkable feeling, allowing yourself to feel worthy of attention, affection, and pleasure. It was definitely jarring at first though. But now, I can't wait to find out more about how I want physicality in my life.

I also truly began to understand why people like me. Oh and truly believing that people see me as a girl. I glimpse more of the reality others see in me. I think this means I am also beginning to accept what I am. I can be this person I was fated to be. And I can direct her story too. I have made some bold statements in the last month I never thought I would ever say. Damn. I am proud of me.

Food

I suck at food. I used to hate food, hate eating, and feared eating. So today on my first day, going to the grocery store and not hating the whole process, and feeling empowered in a new way was awesome. I will slowly work myself into a slightly chubby wubbly mess and I'll love it! I can't wait.

Got to make sure I get me lots of them fruits and veggies while also stuffing myself with crap. MMMmmmmm.

Rolling on

So, I am off to visit friends and family for the rest of the month. Then off to Florida for December. See you there :)