The Rehearsal...

Rehearsal was amazing. I wanted to cry a couple of times. I met Joey, Lawrence, Will, Arlene, Rufus, Kila, Larcel. I listened to them and had fun. I danced. My turn it was rough and hard and I was nervous but got into it. And we could have done better and we ran out of time because I spent a few minutes warming up. But it was good.

The strange part was when I came back at the end and it was only Cyrus and Joey. I walked in and he came up for a long hug. They were both saying some shit. Overload. But Cyrus said I was his angelic nomad. What? Why would he say that? MY thought was how when I spoke with Joey he struggled. I wanted a conversation but I couldn't muster one up. Did he tell I was trans? And then he told Cyrus? And then he felt the need to make me feel wanted and loved? Now knowing more about my situation? Damn. I don't know. What do I know?

I will do fine. I will do fine. I will do fine.