I like to write. Here, you will find writings not focused on recovery.
Swallow hard, breathe, now hold.
The tide is shifting and you are ready.
Swelling, not only inside,
your eyes are wide open this time.
Swayed not by the crash nor pulled by the tow.
For a moment lament the strength you now hold.
Not too long ago you'd have …
A quiet night stares
closed eyes and everything touches you
the humid air engulfs your skin
the smell of swamp burns
it doesn't have to be this way.
Another step away from them
twigs snap, bones ache
and all I ever wanted was me
not because of them
fucking …
Mew doodle do, I'm thinking of you.
I hope that today you're feeling less blue.
Cause in a couple days everything will be alright!
The clouds will clear and you will jeer,
FUCK THAT'S SO BRIGHT!
I didn't have to shut my eyes
I didn't need to tell those lies
I should have been more honest
with myself
Caught staring beneath that light
Wishful thinking, I'll be alright
I should have been more honest
with myself
My world may have gone a tumbling …
It ended slowly.
Coffee cools the fastest when we're least interested.
The last few sips arduous, obligatory.
Didn't mother always say finish your plate?
How rude to the universe lest you be grateful.
Didn't Oliver teach us wanting more was forbidden?
How rude to the universe lest …
fucking sucks
Chronic pain is realizing your pain level 3 is other people's level 7.
Chronic pain is being excited when you get to spend the first couple hours of a day without significant pain when you did something right while you slept.
Chronic pain is never escaping thinking about …
Such is the modern stoics claim
They've' evolved past emotional pain
Turn circles on all who pass
to force their logic down
until we care and admit we're wrong.
You are worthy. You are strong. You can do it. All night long!
In the shadows, through the night. The sun won't rest, always rising to fight.
In harmony, it's tough to be, when you believe, you're unworthy.
but I see you different. I see you whole …
Intellectual Understanding vs. Actualized Integration. The process of normalization. Empathy as dissociation. Self awareness as dissociation. The ability to remove your conscious thoughts from the railroad tracks of your primary lifeline. Then jump back in with a fresh perspective.
I've spent too much of my time removed, dissociated. My challenge …
a swirling visage,
trapped within my gaze,
drowns out the voices
the window remains frosted,
an effervescent stream
screams out from the abyss
face pressed against the glass,
numb,
at least now visible.
Stand in a majestic grove of tall pines.
Endless trunks surrounding
a blanket of burnt orange needles.
far apart they seem,
but this grove's depth eludes you.
The sun wrestles to peak it's way
through the dense fir
but the basking heat muscles it's way through.
The …
This universe is free,
to experience any kind of all kinds that it can.
Where everything is a remix of something else,
think elementally and smaller.
On top of all that raw abstract stuff,
the most complex, varied, and deep contexts occur;
human lives occur.
Impossible it seems, to be …
A moment glimpsed in the slider door to the balcony of my sixth floor apartment. A girl blocked my view. She was on the phone with a friend who had just moved 600 miles away. It was one o'clock in the morning. She was pacing, brought out of bed by …