Finding KC for a third time
chronograph ~ 2019-04-30You might recall, way back in May 15 2017 I met a man at a park in nothern Florida. The conversation we had absolutely played a roll in me finding my reality only ten days later. Following up I luckily ran into him again at the same park in November 30 2017. On that day he was receiving a shipment and had no other reason to be at the park for weeks. Today, I thought I might as well stop by the park for a bit to see if the universe will connect us again.
Seeing him felt so different than the other times. We were separated for much longer, a year and five months versus the six and a half months. And also so much more has happened. As I become more real I spill into the environment around me.
While I felt like we still had a focus on me and my experience, I did feel like what had more of a conversation. I was even able to focus on him and his experience at times. There are only a few people in the last years where I tend to become so consumed by my own process and experience I am unable to engage with their experience. So making this step into his, even if for a few subjects, meant a lot to me. Makes me appreciate those who put up with me like that all the more.
The greatest thing he taught me today.
When he was born it was a tough birth. His mother almost died. The umbilical cord wrapped around his neck. They had to use tongs to help pull him out. For a long time he felt bad about doing that to his mother. Making it hard for her. But he realized that this was the wrong way to look at it. They both got through it together. Yes they had to experience that kind of challenge, but they survived it together.
In this way he was trying to help me find more connection and love towards my own body. As I am finding more power to listen to my body and take care of it, I am not very goot at talking to it. Not truly a shared experience. Trying to reframe my experience as my body and I are working together to get through this challenge meant a lot to me.
I hope I find a way to hold on to this idea and incorporate it into my prespective. And I hope to see KC again in the future.